Gone too soon......

Never in my wildest dreams had I ever  thought that you would leave so sudden. I thought you were here to stay till the completion of the book of my life but you were just a chapter of the story left without even completing your chapter leaving behind the 'me' to continue the rest of the chapters without you to be there to support, to encourage, to cheer up and to 'laugh out loud' with me. Now, I have to  move on  without the one and only best friend whom I had a brotherly bond, cherishing the happy and rainy days we went through together for the past decade. You are the one 'friend' whom I had in my life and where would I go to look for a replacement ?

The news that I wished was never true came to my knowledge on the 16th February at 9.15a.m.  made me like a lost child snivelled and stuttered in sobs making it impossible for my family members to understand what I was saying. I bemoaned in tears and sobbed at the devastating news that you met with an accident and was gone forever.......I cried, I cried my eyes out day and night, and hoped and prayed for the news to be false.......the incessant phone calls, text messages and facebook statuses proved otherwise ....shouts...condolences.....and sobs were everywhere.....realisation dawned upon me that the news was indeed true......without even having a second thought I decided to embark my next unexpected journey to Kuching ....throughout the journey I could not take my mind off from the thoughts of you....When I reached the arrival hall at Kuching International Airport, tears rolled down my cheeks...you promised to pick me up from the airport whenever I go to Kuching but you were not there.....When I reached your house in Serian I had no words to console your parents and brother who were thanking me profusely for taking you to India for our self - discovery cum relaxing holidays...... I was speechless....All I could do was to hug them and cry....I  knew no words can cure the heart-wrecking pain inflicted to them .....

On the next day, I put a brave front to 'meet' you for the last time, but upon reaching the parish hall, it faded. When I saw a brown coffin, the erratic thumping of my heart was driving me into deep bereavement, tears rolled down my cheek uncontrollably as I walked towards the catafalque, there I was facing the moment of truth..... I saw you lying as if you were sleeping peacefully....My heart dropped...I could not control my tears and wailed......but I knew no matter how I cried, nothing was going to change and  I had to accept the fact that you are in a better place and watching us...you are an angel now....

It has been more than a week now, I don't receive your morning messages anymore......It is quite difficult for me to adjust to a life without your existence.....I remember our happy days in Bintulu, when people used to call us 'kopi - susu'......now the 'susu' is no more and left the 'kopi' alone... I will learn to move on  with all the happy and cheerful memories that I had with a happy - go - lucky  Jimmy. Live goes on but the difference that you made in me will definitely remind me of you for the next every day of my life. You are the 'bestest' best friend I have ever had and no one can ever take your place. It is quite difficult to get used to a life without a friend who believed in me, motivated me, cared for me and  shared the same birthday with me, but I will move on ...how long will it take only 'father time' can decide..... Rest in peace dear, you are an angel now.....